BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER

 These past few weeks, I feel like I am in this state wherein, I know I should be happy, thankful, and contented, but I feel like there's something that I really can't pinpoint, which makes me feel lonely. You know? If ya feel me, I am relieved, but if ya don't get it, meeee toooo! I don't fucking get it.  I'm kinda forcing myself to reply to messages on social media, to my friends whom I dearly miss and wanna see already. However, I just don't have the energy that needs to be put in during catch-up sessions. I don't really know what's wrong, I feel lost circling this foreign emotion.  I want to take off my mind off things, but that seems impossible you know. Now I am writing this, which doesn't really solve anything for me, because I can't even explain what this is.  Then I remembered the movie Jason and I watched last night, Cloud Atlas. That humans commit the same mistake over and over again. It's like this tendency is already in our DNA,