BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER

I am generally nonchalant—but I am also considerate. I blend in, I give respect to colleagues, friends, and superiors in the workplace. I see myself as an average employee who does what is expected and is content with where I am. I am not aggressively career-driven. I simply want to do work I enjoy, get paid, enjoy life after work, and quietly exist in this cruel world. With over 15 years of corporate experience, not much fazes me anymore. I’ve met both great and difficult people. Toxic behavior at work usually doesn’t bother me deeply—I get annoyed, yes, but I move on quickly. However,   2025 gave me an experience I will remember for the rest of my life. In January 2025, I left my longest employment—almost seven years. It felt like the right time to move forward. I carry only gratitude for that company and the people who became my family during those years. By March 2025, I accepted a contract role. I wanted to try something new and experience working in BGC. The adjustment was qu...

Regressing at the moment, but finally got the courage to write this one down so I can process my negative thoughts, and hopefully start moviiiiing forward. Right now, I just feel so afraid to go out. I feel like I wanted to stay in this mental safe place I created to preserve the littlest sanity I had left when I resigned.  It's been a little over a month since I left my last employer. That was mid October, but that whole month, I was sick ( first time I experienced flu na magkasunod! like 1 week apart) until like mid November. Then I started going out then, finding new hobbies, just trying my best to not kill myself. You know what I mean?  So, if you are wondering how I got in that point, which I did not expect myself to be in, ganito. This is going to be long and probably you will think that it's no biggie, but to me it cost me my sanity, my self confidence, my peace and my health.  Let's start early this year. January 2025, I resigned from my almost 7 years employment....

Tama nga sila, those that you have already watched or read when you were younger, try doing them again now that you're adult, and it will give you a different perspective about it and about life.  Back in the 90s, I was a grade schooler, I first saw the movie James & the Giant Peach. Ang memory ko sa kanya was James was a bad a boy and he was punished and became a tiny insect and met Centipede, Miss Spider, Earthworm or Silkworm, Grasshopper and others. Then they travelled the world in that giant peach. The movie was dark for me, Tim Burton kinda vibe. I only saw that movie once.  Last month, while I was watching live selling, I was specifically looking for Roald Dahl books. Wala lang, yung era ko today is collecting children's books, for the purpose of reading them at this age, para lang change of scenery of the mind. I've been stressed lately, and I know going back to the things I like when I was younger would really help. So aside from looking for the original fairyt...

I hope someday you find this.  Six years has passed and I still feel every inch of me misses you when we are not together.  Six years has already passed but you still make every effort to spoil me,  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Edit: Another long time draft, and now I found time to go back and write another one.  Today, April 21st, 6 years and 4 months has passed, and every day makes me realize why I feel like we are going to stay together forever.  Right now is not the most ideal phase of our lives, there are aspects that we need to improve on, but despite that, I feel that as long as we are together, we will overcome anything. These past few days were like a  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Edit: Today is October 18, 2025 A few years back, I started doing this not editing the draft of my...

 I miss Tumblr, Mutliply where it's a safe space to just express your thoughts without people attacking you and that discussion is more of an open flow conversation, shedding light to controversial topics. Sharing experiences without judgment. testing hypothesis with positive / constructive criticisms. Ewan ko ha? From Friendster's testi era, na sobrang nakaka uplift ng spirit lagi pag makakatanggap ka ng testi, to Facebook na magsabi ka lang ng opinyon mo babarahin ka na at mamatahin ng iba just because your opinion differ from theirs. Kelan lang yun 2008? Not so long ago pa, but people on the internet has evolved to their virtual violent versions of themselves.  Paano nga ba tayo humantong sa ganto? Ok, disclaimer lang, hindi ito according to studies or what not. According ito sa mga napansin ko, na -experience at opinyon ko. Kung meron kang paniniwala na gusto i share, pwede ka naman mag share sa comment section without making me feel na bobo ako, or mas matalino ka sakin, ...

A supposed blog for my Ading's Pa-siyam, but I have been editing from time to time. So here lies exceprts for you my forever love.  Happy 9th day my forever fluff. I know you are now at peace and enjoying heaven, with your wings as fluffy as your fur. Sorry if I can't be as happy as you, I didn't know missing you would be this hard. I didn't know losing you would be the most difficult time of my life. Each day feels lonelier knowing that I will never see you again. If only there's a price to pay just to see you, and hug you again, I'm willing to bet everything I have just to have another moment with you. Sixteen years felt so short.  I mentally prepared for this, that this day will come. Little did I know, it was just the tip of the iceberg.  It was the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. Although I still want to prolong your life, it was too selfish to just let you suffer. It's time to end your struggle. You've been the best companion, the kin...