Do you ever have that feeling wherein, I feel in my heart that this is what I want to do, but I am afraid I might fail, but I am already taking baby steps to get to where I want to be, but at the same time it feels wrong because ROI will not be instant.
Ok this one's sitting in my drafts since January 17, and a lot has happened already. And by a lot, it was and is a lot to this day. Anyway, I will surely post all from my drafts, because this has been my therapy since god knows since when. And today, with me drowning in anxiety, I will be needing more time typing my feelings away because we cannot afford a therapist.
So, to my old self in January...I am still wishing that 2026 will really be a breakthrough, because right now, since early Feb, all I have was breakdowns and shitload of bills to pay.
I just wanted to breathe. To be free. I know I am living better than a lot of people out there, but I feel sooooooo tied up. It could be age, it could be that I am starting to feel envy which not usually a habit of mine. I kept comparing myself to so many people my age, and it's not doing any good.
The only thing that keeps me going is the responsibility I have for my baby dog. It gets me up in the morning. Then days just go by so fast, but I feel stuck at the same place.
Maybe I should read more books, or go back to creating right? I've been on a slump with my hobbies actually, because work has been so frustratingly difficult. I am putting in 100% but no sales yet on my 2nd month. Tsk.
Anyway, that's just the tip of the iceberg my old friend. I will see on my next entry.
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