Regressing at the moment, but finally got the courage to write this one down so I can process my negative thoughts, and hopefully start moviiiiing forward. Right now, I just feel so afraid to go out. I feel like I wanted to stay in this mental safe place I created to preserve the littlest sanity I had left when I resigned. It's been a little over a month since I left my last employer. That was mid October, but that whole month, I was sick ( first time I experienced flu na magkasunod! like 1 week apart) until like mid November. Then I started going out then, finding new hobbies, just trying my best to not kill myself. You know what I mean? So, if you are wondering how I got in that point, which I did not expect myself to be in, ganito. This is going to be long and probably you will think that it's no biggie, but to me it cost me my sanity, my self confidence, my peace and my health. Let's start early this year. January 2025, I resigned from my almost 7 years employment....
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