BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER

Charot lang! I don't think getting old is an excuse to get sick. Nagkataon lang talaga na mahina yung immune system ko that time, and I got sick! Pero sobrang galing kaya ng body ko for so loooong na may ubo't sipon officemates ko, di ako nahahawa. I am pretty sure, nakuha ko to sa swimming pool, dahil may kadiring nag miming na kasabay ko non na may sipon! Nakita ko sya suminga!Ohmaygaaaaaad. at naisip ko na lang yon, nung bed ridden na ako sa sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Tagal ko na kaya di nagkakatrangkaso. And, pagbalik ko ng office, ang sinasabi nilang culprit eh yung diet kong hindi katulad ng diet nila. I've been eating clean, with occasional cheats dahil may okasyon. Although, not sure if I still want to call it cheats, kasi di ko naman feel na pinapahirapan ko sarili ko with eating more greens, grains and carbs. I still eat bread and cookies though..di ko kaya tanggalin yan! Siguro, ayan na lang ittry ko tanggalin for a week ulit! See if kaya ko. Wala namang ...

What if we can all travel through time? Journey to space and go field trip to parallel universes? What if we can distort timelines and change the tides of events? Would you still be my friend? Will there be a teeny tiny chance that I can be more than that? Or would you change your past, that would ripple to not meeting me at all? But let's say, I can be a master of time, be one with the force of the universe,I'd like to fast forward, and marry you in another lifetime, in a distant galaxy; by the beach, at the edge of the moon, by the forest, at a deserted island, in an ancient church in another era. Utimately, I wanted to give you your dream wedding. Our special union, by the cliff, with light sabers in our hands, Vader as our priest, Padme Amidala as your maid of honor, and the last Jedi beside me. First Order and Resistance unite to witness our first kiss, the seal to infinity together But that's just a make-believe created in my head since the last millenium. T...

Yesterday, I went out for a movie with a friend. Habang nanonood ng Venom na funny..possible palang malungkot ka while watching a funny movie, tapos masarap naman yung popcorn. Nagsisi lang ako dahil cheese ang gusto kong flavor sa popcorn, pero bbq binili ko. Why did I do that? Weird. I promised not to post anything about him anymore..well,technically, this isn't. I just feel sad, alone..and as if the world revolves faster than it should be. Lahat na lang nagmamadali,ang bilis ng mga araw, pero yung pakiradam ko, wala namang nagbabago.Malungkot padin, gusto ko na lang mahiga, magbasa, magsulat, kumain ng patatas, chaka manood ng Star Warsand HIMYM. Gusto ko na lang maging halaman, maging kabute na cute sa kahoy sa labas ng bahay namin. Gusto ko sana tumigil muna kahit saglit yung oras,kung pwede lang na makapagpahinga muna kahit sandali, na walang iniisip na kahit na ano. Pwede ba yun? Gusto ko na makarinig ng hampas ng alon sa dalampasigan,damhin ang lamig ng simoy ng hang...

There I was, thinking I was already ok, after 3 months of not being with him. Hindi pala.. Akala ko mahirap para sayo na umalis,  Akala ko yung mga dahilan na sinabi mo, bakit na natin dapat itigil lahat, ay totoo. Akala ko lahat ng mga pinakita mo, sinabi mo totoo. Akala ko ako yung mali. Akala ko kawalan ako para sayo. Akala ko nahihirapan kadin katulad ko. Akala ko nararamdaman mo din na mahirap mag move-on. Akala ko katulad din kita na hindi kayang magmahal o kahit lumandi agad. Akala ko lang pala lahat. My friends told me to stop being mabait, and be the first to turn her back. Kasi ang weak, always talo. After all the things I have learned about you, I felt weak, I felt betrayed, I felt irrelevant. Pero ayaw ko na talaga sya i emote. Pakiramdam ko naubos na lahat ng ieemote ko para sa kanya. I just felt na di nya magagawa sakin yun. Maybe, I didn't know him that well. Ayoko ng magsulat ng tungkol sayo. Ayoko ng maisip kung ok ka lang ba, nalu...