BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER

 Lately, I've been thinking about life, my dreams, some negative thoughts - comparing myself to my batch mates who made something already for themselves, starting a family, am I ready for that? Changing careers. You get it, I have a lot going on in my head. It hasn't come to a point na magbbreakdown ako, but I am longing for my friends. During college, before we took the board exam, or that was after I forgot. We went to a spontaneous Tagaytay trip, then we sad on a parang ledge ba or something overlooking the city. Ang pinag uusapan namin, ano na kaya mangyayare satin? Sino kaya unang magkakaanak, sino unang mag aasawa? San kaya tayo mag wwork? Mga ganon. It was so pure, and we were clueless of what lies ahead of us. Fast forward to today, all of us I would say walang napariwara. Lahat kami are working, yung iba doctor na nga and some of us nag asawa na, and may pamilya na. Me? still figuring out if I am really ready to take the leap. I would not say na naghihirap ako, I am li...

May dalawang bagay na medyo nabbother ako at kelangan ko ng kasagutan talaga. Una, bakit may parents na gustong dalhin ang baby nila sa Disneyland. Take note, mga 3 - 8 months ang pinag uusapan ha. Walang yaya na kasama. Tatlo lang daw sila. Hindi naman matatandaan ng baby yon. Kahit pakitaan mo ng pictures, di rin naman nila matatandaan. Basta alam nila nag Disneyland sila nung baby pa sila. Nag enjoy ba sila? Also, mapapagod lang yung parents mag alaga, mag tulak ng stroller. Di pa sila makakapag rides. Please enlighten me. Edit: Because this has been in my drafts for years, I got good insights coming from my friends who have done this with their kids. The gist of their answers were "creating memories", although hindi pa to masasama sa core memory ng baby, it will be sa parents. Since parents experience burnout as well, going to a place where their inner kid would enjoy is a great ice breaker to their exhausted parent bodies. haha. basta ganon. It was an eye-opener. Pangala...

Super nauso yung mga tweets about manifesting ng jowa. Example: Mariz Racal & Rico Blanco. Nagtweet si Mariz years ago about Rico then after how may years, sila na. Ganong levels. Madaming celebrities nag-post ng ganito non. Basta gets nyo na yung idea.  Then I realized, I did manifest the person I am with today (since puberty stage). Nung high school palang ako, syempre ayun yung stage in life na you form those things in your head about your ideal someone. Ang m adalas kong crush yung mga naka-glasses, matangkad, payat, and mabango. Pero ang mga pinalad sa raffle na HS jowa ko non, ay different from my "ideal guy". Ewan ko din, bihira pa sa 4 leaf clover makakita ng ganung lalake sa school namin. Tapos yung nag-iisang ganon na crush ko that time, eh hindi ako gusto! Skip na natin yung college. Kasi dito yung parang united nations ang mga nagdaan na lalake sa buhay ko. Walang pattern, and again. Hindi padin pasok sa ideal guy category. Usually merong kulang. Naka-glas...

Syempre sasali tayo sa usaping Slater Young at Kryz Uy. Bilang bet ko yung videos ng anak nilang si Scottie hahaha According sa mga nabasa ko sa Twitter, (di na ako nakinig sa podcast nila dahil naniniwala ako na karamihan ng podcasts ay pasikatan lang ng mga beliefs na feeling nila ay superior over other people's opinion) hindi naman talaga walking green flag si Slater, based sa podcast episodes nila. Muka lang syang ideal because that's how they are posing or that's what they want the world to see sa vlogs nila or sa posts. Aba malamang! Social Media is crap! It's an endless cycle of making the world believe that you are living the best life and not falling apart.  Anyway, back to the issue na sabi ni Slater, it's ok to fantasize other women kahit you are in a committed relationship. In his case, may asawa na sya. Sabi nya it's very very normal since he has friends, in their gc na nagssend ng pictures ng ibang babae, and comment about the physical beauty and a...

It was our 4th anniversary last Dec 21st, and we (or ako lang pala, kasi tinanong nya ko ano gusto ko gawin) decided to do something different. With our busy and sometimes conflicting schedule, usually ang date namin ay maiksi lang, so this time, we'd like to just disconnect and just spend quality time together, so we are celebrating it week long. Going to somewhere a bit far from Manila will do the trick. Bilang ang tita nyo ay may bucketlist na mostly makikita sa Sibika at Kultura books, we are ticking off Banaue Rice Terraces of that list. :) Also, hindi ko alam na may direct na bus going to Banaue, so nag byahe muna kami to Baguio. Victory Liner - book your seats online para less pila sa terminal. Parang airplane lang, you can choose your seats. Lagay ko na lang breakdown ng expenses namin sa baba. We had our snacky sa Chocalate de Batirol, must try, and dinner before trip to Banaue sa Hill Station, in which I found my favorite Ceasar salad. :D For convenience and less pila tim...

Been a while my old friend...Here are words and phrases which don't make sense, but creates colors and chaos in your head.  I'll see you in the rabbit hole.  Strawberry waterfall, fluffy and old A cup of watermelon smoke, honeydew melted stones wrapped in silk and cones Blurring eyesight, glittery white lights and a spew of colors Citrus pulpy water, salty lies and excruciating dreams I thought about my dog, the one I love most The Cardigans, The Beatles, jamming with Santa and the reindeers Cracklets and juices, old souls and broken themes Blinkers and wetlands, coffee colored clouds, green beans floating in space Sugar coated nails, snails and ants as big as the sea lions A medley of pink shards of glass stirred in your dirty yellow sunset Where can I see the queen, the cat and the oysters Do you hear the music, the notes and the band? Have a slice of cake. We'll touch the sky and drink shakes.