BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER

Tama nga sila, those that you have already watched or read when you were younger, try doing them again now that you're adult, and it will give you a different perspective about it and about life.  Back in the 90s, I was a grade schooler, I first saw the movie James & the Giant Peach. Ang memory ko sa kanya was James was a bad a boy and he was punished and became a tiny insect and met Centipede, Miss Spider, Earthworm or Silkworm, Grasshopper and others. Then they travelled the world in that giant peach. The movie was dark for me, Tim Burton kinda vibe. I only saw that movie once.  Last month, while I was watching live selling, I was specifically looking for Roald Dahl books. Wala lang, yung era ko today is collecting children's books, for the purpose of reading them at this age, para lang change of scenery of the mind. I've been stressed lately, and I know going back to the things I like when I was younger would really help. So aside from looking for the original fairyt...

I hope someday you find this.  Six years has passed and I still feel every inch of me misses you when we are not together.  Six years has already passed but you still make every effort to spoil me,  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Edit: Another long time draft, and now I found time to go back and write another one.  Today, April 21st, 6 years and 4 months has passed, and every day makes me realize why I feel like we are going to stay together forever.  Right now is not the most ideal phase of our lives, there are aspects that we need to improve on, but despite that, I feel that as long as we are together, we will overcome anything. These past few days were like a  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Edit: Today is October 18, 2025 A few years back, I started doing this not editing the draft of my...

 I miss Tumblr, Mutliply where it's a safe space to just express your thoughts without people attacking you and that discussion is more of an open flow conversation, shedding light to controversial topics. Sharing experiences without judgment. testing hypothesis with positive / constructive criticisms. Ewan ko ha? From Friendster's testi era, na sobrang nakaka uplift ng spirit lagi pag makakatanggap ka ng testi, to Facebook na magsabi ka lang ng opinyon mo babarahin ka na at mamatahin ng iba just because your opinion differ from theirs. Kelan lang yun 2008? Not so long ago pa, but people on the internet has evolved to their virtual violent versions of themselves.  Paano nga ba tayo humantong sa ganto? Ok, disclaimer lang, hindi ito according to studies or what not. According ito sa mga napansin ko, na -experience at opinyon ko. Kung meron kang paniniwala na gusto i share, pwede ka naman mag share sa comment section without making me feel na bobo ako, or mas matalino ka sakin, ...

A supposed blog for my Ading's Pa-siyam, but I have been editing from time to time. So here lies exceprts for you my forever love.  Happy 9th day my forever fluff. I know you are now at peace and enjoying heaven, with your wings as fluffy as your fur. Sorry if I can't be as happy as you, I didn't know missing you would be this hard. I didn't know losing you would be the most difficult time of my life. Each day feels lonelier knowing that I will never see you again. If only there's a price to pay just to see you, and hug you again, I'm willing to bet everything I have just to have another moment with you. Sixteen years felt so short.  I mentally prepared for this, that this day will come. Little did I know, it was just the tip of the iceberg.  It was the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. Although I still want to prolong your life, it was too selfish to just let you suffer. It's time to end your struggle. You've been the best companion, the kin...

Sabi nila, the greatest act of love is letting go. Letting go of the person you love most, and let them live their best life without you.  Edi andito tayo at one of my darkest points of life, listening to 241 by Rivermaya, tapos naalala ko si Rico Blanco at Maris Racal. Nag break sila because apparently, Rico proposed marriage to Maris, but she's not ready yet. She wants to explore and know herself more. Salute for prioritizing herself and not accepting the proposal, kasi she might just end up unhappy and disliking her husband because she sacrificed a big step in her career. Anyway, ang point ko dito was the act of letting go. Rico let her spread her wings, and watch her become the best version of herself. Finding happiness and wonders of life without him.  Anyway, my kwento today is not super similar, but I felt it was a good story to share with you (tagal kita di nakwentuhan blog), I remembered that time in my life, when I thought I was gonna marry my first love. I was young...

 Lately, I've been thinking about life, my dreams, some negative thoughts - comparing myself to my batch mates who made something already for themselves, starting a family, am I ready for that? Changing careers. You get it, I have a lot going on in my head. It hasn't come to a point na magbbreakdown ako, but I am longing for my friends. During college, before we took the board exam, or that was after I forgot. We went to a spontaneous Tagaytay trip, then we sad on a parang ledge ba or something overlooking the city. Ang pinag uusapan namin, ano na kaya mangyayare satin? Sino kaya unang magkakaanak, sino unang mag aasawa? San kaya tayo mag wwork? Mga ganon. It was so pure, and we were clueless of what lies ahead of us. Fast forward to today, all of us I would say walang napariwara. Lahat kami are working, yung iba doctor na nga and some of us nag asawa na, and may pamilya na. Me? still figuring out if I am really ready to take the leap. I would not say na naghihirap ako, I am li...