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Coming Home

Tonight, Dunkin Iced Coffee gave me an extra something to visit my old beloved blogsite. 
Grabe din yung transition ko from being that carefree, witty writer (for me lang ah), to boring person. Cringey!

The reason I am coming back is very simple. The tone of my blogs when I started here was very vibrant, I ended it in 2018 with sad blogs. I have 2 muses before when I write, today, with my Wordpress blogsit,  I don't have any, I write boring stuff there. Walang excitement. I am coming back in hopes of reuniting with my muses. Sa blogsite kong to I can be very open, very poetic, very emotional, and be one with my subconscious thoughts. This was my free wall, the kid in me was here, this was where my worries and adult things are almost non existent. Just fun and malandi. hahaha. 

So what am I gonna write here then? Now that my 30 year old self doesn't really know how to write anymore? Ewan ko din.  Pero recently kasi, in my struggle to go back, I browsed The Little Prince. Sabi nya don, "All grown ups were children once ( but most of them have forgotten)." So that's what happened. I grew up, yung mga responsibilidad ko sa buhay parang mas matangkad na sakin, kaya I lost the time to be a kid. Dati may talent ako na I can clear my head. As in plain white canvas yung utak ko. I can do that. Now? Hindi na dzai! I don't even know how to relax anymore. 24 hours isn't enough for me, with all the things I have to do, and with all the bills I have to pay, I need to work hard. 

Before I have my own kid...s, I want to write short stories ulit, those alamats I've been doing before? Gusto ko magsulat ng mas madaming ganon. Before, I dreamt of being a children's book writer, I enjoyed creating those monsters under the bed na mga characters, and the kids na bida. I miss those! 

Also, I am planning to make kwento the heartbreaks I've had before I met my forever, Jason. <3 Since I ended my blog here ng 2018, which was the start of our love story, Imma kwento how I moved on sa mga past kong choices. That's gonna be fun! Yung jowa kong si Jason, he never initiated a conversation to know my past lovelife, ewan ko din bakit sya ganon. May tao palang ganon? Sabi nya, past self ko na yun, and those events led me to him. So nothing to talk about na daw, ang importante is we will be together forever. Actually nung bago palang kami, di sya naniniwala sa forever. Today, he got into terms with the concept of forever. 

Ang happy din knowing that I have documented a lot of things from my carefree days, to my adult life. 

So what will happen to my Wordpress? I might use that for business or work related posts. Bloopers sa recruitment, or mag networking ako don siguro. Char! Or self help posts ganon. As if may maihhelp ako sa iba no? 

These are my plans for now. Sana mapangatawanan ko 'to. I will try. :) 

So dahil ako lang naman andito, I am welcoming myself back. 

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