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A Sound Clip

I was never fond of listening to random music from an app like soundclound. Music and I never really get along that well, to make me sit, click on some random person who composed a song, and enjoy it. For me to want to listen to something unknown, someone should tell me that it's good and that it really is attention-worthy.

Sooooo, here comes an anonymous person who, I think is the same person, commenting in some of my blogs here, sound clips.Very specific,original soundbites from soundclound. I would say the songs are very specific, because it totally relates to the blogs that he commented on! Talk about on point,hit right home thing. Kudos to mr/ms anonymous.

Recently, anony (yes, I'm giving you this name just to make it short, and i dont have to type it fully, but here I am explaining why I christened you with a shorter code name, to make my life easier. What's wrong with me?), let's just make it Mous! para cute, like my kras from the movie Step Up. Anyway!!! Mous posted a soundclip in my most recent blog, and it struck me like no other song ever did to me. I was using my mobile phone when I listened to it, I was standing in front of my bed, plugged in my earphones and the song goes like this:

So many times I've tried not to think of you
And each time I try the more i cant get over you
Memories of our love story still haunt me every single day
So i pray you'd be back in my arms someday

Oh every morning just before the sun rise
How i long to see your smile

I still long to see your face
And feel the warmth of your embrace
And so i ask the stars in the sky, why cant i have you back in my life
And i hold your hand just for tonight
Lay beside me, hold me close like you won't let me go away

I still long to see your face
And feel the warmth of your embrace
And so i ask the stars in the sky, bring back the love i once have in my life
I will hold your hand just you and me tonight
Lay beside me, for i will never ever let you go away

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The message was very simple, very straight-forward, nothing extraordinary about it, but it felt genuine to the bones.I  am not sure if the song totally, irrevocably relates to my current situation, but it really did make me blank stare at idunnowhat, and felt every broken piece of my heart. I miss my jagabee,I miss how we cared for each other, how we used to sing along to songs we both love, and smile at each other like the world's not revolving around the sun.No sense at all, I know. haaaaaay. Now, now that we don't have the right to be together, I love him even more. I love him with every strand of muscle I have in my entire body. And just how much I long to see his smile again? It would never equate to anything, not even the space, if it exist, in the universe. And if ever, the whole inter-universe would conspire with me, and let me have him back in my life, I would be the happiest earthling who ever lived in the face of this fatherfuckin planet. I will never get tired of proving to this cruel world that love is the greatest thing that ever existed, that love is forever.

This blog is for the anonymous earthling who gave me another reason to keep on loving him, my jagabee who doesn't know that I still think about him every fucking day, while healing my broken heart. It calmed my agitated soul, silenced the echoes of pain in my head, but made me cry again..for the nth time. If anyone would ask me why I am back to square one, let's blame Mous!:) If ever you'll see this, I want to thank you..although, it's a sad song, I remembered something I once advised a friend..that when you're in love with someone who doesn't care about you, you don't lose anything. You'll actually end up winning, because love is not something you subtract from your lovetank..it multiplies when given..how much more when shared..right? right!

Made me feel a bit of my old self bursting back to life :)




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Anonymous said…
Wow, didn't expect you'll going to come up with a post bout that comment/song, my song or should i say "Sound Clip" suggestions were just base on the content na nababasa ko sa blog kung ano lang pumasok na song sa isip ko while reading it, but reading the title first of that entry, "Ito ang tama" unang pumasok sa isip ko, hehe. You are very much welcome kahit na sinisisi mo ko :), start posting happy entries please, that way my next song/comment might be also be well, masaya na.

Btw, im a mr.
September 9, 2016 at 2:24 PM
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