Some time last week, my emotions are everywhere.
Work was a ok,just the normal adjustment period. Tryna settle in, and build a nest of my own. Family is ok, room is getting a make over, thus all my things are literally everywhere, thus again, I can't fully arrange all my books to be kept, and to be given away. Business is kinda not ok, I'm losing some of my network, I have to have consistency in this. Although, I can't focus on that, if I am still tryna be good at my new job. So, it takes a lot of my time. Especially my thinking time.
Then, what else is there more cliche than love,to talk about? Ano na naganap? Ayun ang problema,walang nagaganap. I tried to fight, to make this work...Pero, feeling ko nagkatotoo na yung sinulat ko before, na paano ka lalaban sa giyerang hindi pa man nagsisimula, meron na agad sumuko. Hindi pa man nagbibigay ng hatol ang tadhana, bumigay na sya at nawalan ng pag-asa. I was confused. Ano ba ginawa ko para hindi piliin? Ako ba ay laging letter D? none of the above yan lagi sa exam. Hindi ako magmamapait kasi wala akong karapatan, yung sing ganda nga ni Selena Gomez, hindisya ang na choose na best answer ni Justin Bieber. Hindi rin naman ako Pokemon para piliin. So, steady lang ako.
I just felt blessed lang, that's why I'm writing this. Kasi, hindi ako yung tao na magmemessage ng friend just to rant about how I feel, unless tatanungin ako. Ayun, wala akong pag iimbot na magkkwento. Pero pag hindi ako tinanong, quiet lang ako. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, to make someone listen to my unending apprehensions in life. Unless, the person confirmed that he/she has the spare time to lend an ear. Ayun nga, I was miserable for a few days. Natulo ang tears kahit naghahanap lang naman ako ng Plant Nutritionist para sa mga pinya sa Mindanao. Walang nakakaiyak don, pero naiiyak ako. Kasi feeling ko ang shwanget ko, walang substance, walang karapatan mahalin. Kiwawa naman ang pobre, nag self pity. Then, someone, I did not expect to be there for me, asked me if I was ok! Saktong sakto parang coke sakt, at x-sakto na chuchirya. Napakabuting human being. Nabawasan yung bigat na nararamdaman ko, and napag isip isip ko, na wag higpitan ang kapit sa bagay na wala naman kasiguraduhan. Ayaw ko ipilit ang bagay na hindi naman meant to be. At alam ko, na sa huli, mangyayare ang dapat mangyare. I may not know why my heart was broken..again. But, I trust that someday, things will be clearer than daylight.
Ayoko problemahin to kasi mas malaki pa problema sakin ng mga tao sa ibang panig ng mundo, na nagugutom at kumakain ng lupa. Eto, butil lang to ng bigas, kumpara sa ibang problema ng mundo.
To end this kaartehan, I'm writing stories again. Puro plot, di ko maituloy tuloy sa storyline na mismo. Patience is a virtue. Dadating din tayo don. Parang EDSA, kahit naman ma stuck ka sa traffic, pasasaan ba't makakarting ka din. Hindi nga lang siguro on time, or sa kagustuhan mong oras..pero makakarating ka. :)
Work was a ok,just the normal adjustment period. Tryna settle in, and build a nest of my own. Family is ok, room is getting a make over, thus all my things are literally everywhere, thus again, I can't fully arrange all my books to be kept, and to be given away. Business is kinda not ok, I'm losing some of my network, I have to have consistency in this. Although, I can't focus on that, if I am still tryna be good at my new job. So, it takes a lot of my time. Especially my thinking time.
Then, what else is there more cliche than love,to talk about? Ano na naganap? Ayun ang problema,walang nagaganap. I tried to fight, to make this work...Pero, feeling ko nagkatotoo na yung sinulat ko before, na paano ka lalaban sa giyerang hindi pa man nagsisimula, meron na agad sumuko. Hindi pa man nagbibigay ng hatol ang tadhana, bumigay na sya at nawalan ng pag-asa. I was confused. Ano ba ginawa ko para hindi piliin? Ako ba ay laging letter D? none of the above yan lagi sa exam. Hindi ako magmamapait kasi wala akong karapatan, yung sing ganda nga ni Selena Gomez, hindisya ang na choose na best answer ni Justin Bieber. Hindi rin naman ako Pokemon para piliin. So, steady lang ako.
I just felt blessed lang, that's why I'm writing this. Kasi, hindi ako yung tao na magmemessage ng friend just to rant about how I feel, unless tatanungin ako. Ayun, wala akong pag iimbot na magkkwento. Pero pag hindi ako tinanong, quiet lang ako. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, to make someone listen to my unending apprehensions in life. Unless, the person confirmed that he/she has the spare time to lend an ear. Ayun nga, I was miserable for a few days. Natulo ang tears kahit naghahanap lang naman ako ng Plant Nutritionist para sa mga pinya sa Mindanao. Walang nakakaiyak don, pero naiiyak ako. Kasi feeling ko ang shwanget ko, walang substance, walang karapatan mahalin. Kiwawa naman ang pobre, nag self pity. Then, someone, I did not expect to be there for me, asked me if I was ok! Saktong sakto parang coke sakt, at x-sakto na chuchirya. Napakabuting human being. Nabawasan yung bigat na nararamdaman ko, and napag isip isip ko, na wag higpitan ang kapit sa bagay na wala naman kasiguraduhan. Ayaw ko ipilit ang bagay na hindi naman meant to be. At alam ko, na sa huli, mangyayare ang dapat mangyare. I may not know why my heart was broken..again. But, I trust that someday, things will be clearer than daylight.
Ayoko problemahin to kasi mas malaki pa problema sakin ng mga tao sa ibang panig ng mundo, na nagugutom at kumakain ng lupa. Eto, butil lang to ng bigas, kumpara sa ibang problema ng mundo.
To end this kaartehan, I'm writing stories again. Puro plot, di ko maituloy tuloy sa storyline na mismo. Patience is a virtue. Dadating din tayo don. Parang EDSA, kahit naman ma stuck ka sa traffic, pasasaan ba't makakarting ka din. Hindi nga lang siguro on time, or sa kagustuhan mong oras..pero makakarating ka. :)
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