BRIDGE ACROSS FOREVER

Syempre joke lang yung title! Sino ba naman ako para sabihing kaaway ko ang pinakamain roatd hukbong kamaynilaan. Nakikidaan na nga lang ako, ako pa nagrereklamo, mamaya lagyan nila ng toll gate yan bawat MRT station, edi lalo tayong na bv, baka mag aklas na tayo araw araw nyan.. Anyway, masyado nang mahaba yung kaartehan ko sa intro. Naalala ko, kahapon pala yung anniversary gn EDSA revolution, at kaakibat non, naalala ko ang mga karanasan na sa pagtahak sa EDSA ko lang na experience.  Dati, nag bbus ako pagpasok sa trabaho at pag uwi,ngayon ewan ko bakit sinapian na ako ng kaartehan at katamaran, lagi na akong naka taxi. Ah alam ko na,medyo di pala kaya ng balat ko na mainit pag mga 10am na ako uuwi, alam naman nating lahat na ang araw sa ating bansa ay parang oven toaster na ngayon, hindi na lang ito nagbibigay ng Vitamin D, kundi nagbibigay narin ito ng amoy araw anit at init ng ulo, basang kili kili, singit, likod ng tuhod, at minsan kaakibat p nito ang biproduct ng bacter...

There are days that I don't want to go to work, days that I wanna wake up in a different place where no one knows me. A time to breathe different air and see different night lights. But each time I try to detach and let their worlds turn without me, it's still me who choose to go back and take care of things for them. At the end of the day, I don't know if I should stay, or take that leap of faith and chase that dream. I'm not the type to regret things and ask non sense what if questions. I always settle for what I am sure of and for what I believe in..I despise overthinking because it only confuses people. I don't want days to just go by and let my brain explode with thoughts that are not true and will eventually make me feel worthless. Right now, I'm having the biggest dilemma I've ever had in years. I am torn between leaving and staying.  This is not just with work...it's with all that I have right now. Work is getting well,I guess. After talk...

Around this time last year, I decided to deactivate my Facebook account along with my Tumblr account. First and foremost, my reason was plain: social experiment. In this era of dependency to social media to achieve love and belongingness, I want to know for myself if I can live without it.  I did. My experiment was successful! Here are the things I realized: It is not about the likes, shares and follows that make you 'friends' with anyone. If you are friends in FB and you guys are exchanging comments in this platform, it does not necessarily reflect in real life. Once I deactivated my account, there remained my true friends, who reached out, and asked where am I, how am I doing, if I'm still alive. Anyway, I've known them from the start. I have this gift of knowing if a person will stay in my life or not. I perceive their aura as cue on how to deal with them. From then on, I enjoyed the simple life of waking up to peaceful mornings/nights, without excessive dram...

Sa henerasyong laging nagmamadali, ang mga ipinanganak sa panahong walang pag aatubili, namamangha kung paanong oras ay tila napakaliksi. Bakit nga ba ang araw ngayo'y parang laging pagod at gusto'y gabi na lang lagi? Minsan aaraw, minsan kukulimlim, minsa'y presko ang hangin. Kadalasan, ang bilis ng tanghali. Ang dating siesta, ngayo'y puro na lang pagttrabaho at ayaw umuwi. Bilang ipinanganak sa huling dekada ng inosenteng pagkabata, mangmang sa mundo ng teknolohiya, may panahon na ang puso ko'y puno ng agam-agam. Bakit parang gaya ng panahon, ang tao ay nagiging pabigla-bigla, sa pagdedesisyon, sa pag-ibig at pag-aasawa? May isa akong kakilala, kaibigang matalik, kapatid kong turing. Ilang taon na lang, ang edad nya'y lilisan na sa kalendaryong Lunar. Galing sa relasyong matatag, ngunit nagdesisyon ang tadhanang wag ng tumagal. Sya'y naghahanap, nagmamadali, humihingi ng signo sa mga talang kumikislap, kung may pag-ibig nga bang para sa...

You were in my far past, And I'm moving on. You were in my dream, so real, it felt like we're living in reality. T'was a novel-like dream, of stardust and strawberry cream. You called, and I found you walking around your office warily. I knocked, but you seemed busy. I waited. Time could be as cruel as the weather, the agony of waiting to rain felt forever. After the unsettling hours of standstill, I saw you at the doorway, waiving at someone who looked exactly like me. An apparition or just my anxiety toying with me? My footsteps came to a halt, I can't move. I saw how your eyes sparkle and your smiles danced with hers. It was sheer, unyielding happiness. Every heartbeat was harrowing, every breath tormented my lungs within. I heard myself screaming your name, but words never came. Tears sprung, with trembling knees I turned and walked away. I was weak and the joy of seeing you after eons were replaced with anguish and melancholy. Oh, how I ...

Bakit ba natin inaadbans ang relo natin eh alam naman nating advanced sya? Paano na wwire sa utak natin na hindi ma late pag adbans ang ating oras, kung alam naman nating adbans nga sya in the first place? Kung ang tissue ay galing sa puno, paano sya nagiging malambot, at swabe ipunas sa kung saan saang bahagi ng katawan? Tingin mo mauubos ang tubig sa Earth? kasi hindi naman sya narerecycle.. Anong force ang nagpapatakbo sa selpon, bakit sobrang adik, to the point na hindi na mabuhay ang tao without it? Bakit napakadaming apps sa Play Store? Saan gawa ang graba? Bakit tinawag na black friday? May maitim ba sa Biyernes? Bakit hindi na lang gawing worldwide celebration ang Thanksgiving? It would make sense naman kung magkaron tayo ng sense of gratitude lahat diba? Sino ba nakaimbento na magkaron ng ninong at ninang? Eh yung akin nga MIA sila lahat. Sino din ang nakaimbento nung claw machine game sa mga arcade? ansarap nya lumpuhin. Baka maging senior citizen na ako di...

Ang pagiging adult -- ay hindi choice, hindi rin stage of life na kelangan mo lagpasan. Bagkus, ito ay lifestyle. Pota friend, ang hirap pero at the end of the day, when you get to accomplish things...it becomes fulfilling, sometimes, inspiring. I consider my 2017 as turning point of me accepting the fact that I have to act now and make sure to plan for my future. At the start of the year, I created a list of things I want to do and experience. I put in 17 items, and today, I ticked 10 of them. Kulang pa friend, pero yung mga natira naman, most of them are just luxury, hindi necessity, e.g my backpiece tat na gusto ko na matapos, and another piece sa wrist. Those are hindi nakakahinayang, but enrolling to take a language course, di ko sya naharap this year. Although, there are also things that I did not plan, but happened, such as my baking journey!:) I've written several entries here about how I started, how I plan to improve and where I want to go from here. It became a l...