An Unfinished Letter

Just because I saw how horrible my letter is currently, I'm gonna edit and make this a bit lighter..:)

Dear you,

The first time I saw, you I did not expect to feel anything other than irritation towards your arrogant vibe. You're the typical guy who I wanna loathe and avoid, but then things happened, and unexpected as they may seem,all impossible things I did not imagine before happened. We started going out and we have that connection I did not get from anyone else for quite a while. I know I can speak out my weird ideas, feel comfortable about my quirkiness around you and be the carefree, annoying being i really am. "He's a different creature", I said. 

"An alien sent from a different dimension.." Although, I know that he just came from his mom's womb just like the rest of us, or he might be from a different realm because he's such a challenge, and that he's a very unique creature.

Days and months passed by, I began to know you even more, not just with the stories you animatedly told me,but by your awkward silence and non verbal language. they spoke way more than you talked. I began to think, I began to wonder how that freakish mind works. Your mere existence just lit up a fire inside my head, and as time goes by, it keeps on burning. It's like this, it kills me to paint a picture of the unknown, of colors that don't match and of words that don't fit together. You became my biggest puzzle breathing and grooving with life!! You're like a bizarre chess piece that doesn't belong anywhere,uncategorized, unorthodox. These things drew me more, they made me want to delve even deeper. You're a continuous challenge. How do I resist such temptation? You shoot up a tub of adrenaline rush inside my system! In short, I got hooked. I got addicted to the idea of you..and me. Yep, that came to mind..the word US. 

But all good things must come to and end they say.. things changed. I knew this was coming, but I still kept an inch of hope, i extended 'benefit of the doubt',just to suspend whatever judgment I initially have. You changed..in a span of 3 weeks, I felt I was just an accessory, a mere figurine that he kept on his desk top, which he'll admire if he wants to. I did not complain, I did not ask, I did not demand attention. I just waited..and waited.

Whatever something that we've had, I knew it was just a paragraph to you, but for me, you were a whole chapter..I gave up the idea to carry this over to the next chapter, and before it ended..

Of all the things that I dare not wish to happen, the inevitable happened..someone came in to the picture. I did not expect the turn of events, I was surprised with the things I did not know, until then. Although, I was anticipating the end of our chapter, I did not foresee that this will turn out like this..bitter.

It ended in just a snap..a snap of hurtful words, of fucking lies, and resentment. I'm waiting for the right time to talk to you..to apologize on things I may have said that hurt you. But, distance might be the answer to close a gap..to close the chapter.

I'm writing you this letter, not because I despise you..i may have for several days, but I intend to continue this with a grateful heart..because, even though it was just a glimpse of uncertain happiness..you let me inside of your dark world..

I can't finish this letter because of one classic reason..I'm still waiting for answers..